Back to Work
Today was my first day back. I had to move clinics though, so now I work at our acute (in hospital) dialysis unit and they are starting me out at one day a week. Money wise I suppose it is better then nothing. In truth though, if there was any way to work it so I could be a full time stay at home mom, that is what I would do.
Financially right now that is just not possible. So, high ho…high ho… it’s off to work I go… I got all the kids down about 6pm last night. Got everything around for the morning, cleaned up a little, made bottles, and the next thing I know it is almost 12am. Criton got up and I fed him, then went to bed. I slept until about 4am, got up, helped with the babies (rocking them back down/ feeding), took a shower, made gripe water, and then took off for work. Man was I tired today. Normally the babies keep me so busy I don’t have time to be tired. It wasn’t bad, and I love being a nurse but I love being home with my babies more. I cryed before I left the house. I sniffled in the car. Then I thought about them every minute. I never thought I would want to be a stay at home mom. Actually I was quite content to let Michael do that since he works from home anyway, but everything has changed for me. I want more then anything to stay with them and care for them all the time. So I am trying to find something I can do from home that will bring in at least $1000/ month which is what we need bare minimum to make up for me not working. You would think being an RN with Critical Care, Clinical education, and dialysis background, that there would be something I could do… but haven’t found it yet. Back to my day… Work went by slowly and we only had 4 patients today which is ultra light. I think I will like doing acutes because it is a mix of ICU and dialysis and I loved working in ICU. The people there are just like everywhere else. There are some good ones with good work ethics like mine or bad ones who slack anytime they can. That never made any sense to me but I always see it no matter where I go. I called home a couple of times to check on the kidos. Each time someone was fussing which made me want to go home even more, but I did what I had to. I did get out about 2 hours early though due to lack of patients which was cool. I got to come home and play with the kids a little before it was time to put them to bed. They took turns getting snuggled and kissed by momma. They were ultra fussy at their bedtime though and Michael informed me they did not nap well at all today. That saddened me because we were just getting on a good routine. I suppose we will just get back on it tomorrow. Right now the babies are sleeping peacefully, Miche is running around the house while Michael fixes her computer, and I am sitting here talking to all of you exhausted out of my mind. Perhaps the babies will sleep good tonight and so can I. If not though I will happily get up and attend to any of their needs. It is strange yet joyful, all the changes the babies have brought to my life, to me. Things I never thought I’d want, like being a stay at home mom, I want. The way they melt me with every little smile or gleeful look. The way they crack me up when they are trying to talk or playing. Children are a blessing, and triplets just make it three times the blessing.